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alec (𝘩𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘳𝘥𝘶𝘥𝘦) brennan⚡ ([personal profile] striketwice) wrote2022-10-02 07:47 pm

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REVERIE INBOX
"THIS IS ALEC. MAKE IT QUICK."
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-05 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[He pauses. He can throw away so many acquaintances with ease, thinking nothing of them, but there are a few in this place that stick like burs. And a rarer few that he would particularly not like to lose.]

I can count on my fingers how many people I've ever felt close to. People I've felt like I resonate with on a deeper level. You're one of them. ["Resonate" is maybe an understatement with Alec, but that's a different matter.] And so is she. But then again, so was Eleven. And that fell apart, too.

[So, you know, nothing new.]

So yes, it would be nice to salvage it, but I hardly know what else to tell her.
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Henry’s far better at making things worse, too. He had to make an attempt to hold his tongue more than once, so maybe he’s simply not destined to provide people comfort. Kids, he can deal with. Their wants and needs are so easy to understand. But beyond that?

Opposite of Alec, Henry eases back to recline against the back of the couch. Honestly? All of this is just so… ridiculous.]


This is why I don’t like dealing with human relationships.

[Generally.]
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 04:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[don't laugh at his socially stunted wooooesss]

Maybe you've forgotten that I'm not exactly human anymore.

[Despite this body.]
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 05:09 pm (UTC)(link)
...No.

[Ugh.]

But it doesn't mean my preferences have been completely flipped around. You think I like being wrapped up in a web of complications? [No one likes that, Henry. Also, he's being hypocritical again for a man who hides so much.] I prefer it to be straightforward, like with you and me.
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[Absolutely no soul-searching when it comes to his own soul, at least. He is fine with letting the rest of it slide.]

That's not exactly what I mean, but yes. You are tactless a lot of the time.
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[Listen, how many times has he called Alec "insufferable" in his head? He's only speaking the truth.]

I think I just believed that our friendship might have overridden any insecurities. [Naive of him, he supposes.] But if you say give it time, I'll give it time.

[Of course he'll take his advice.]
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[The way his eyes snap over to Alec again, brow angled, is immediate. His response, just as much.]

What? Of course I'm sure. This doesn't change anything.

[Does Alec think it might have? Did he give him room to doubt? Or does he think he should reconsider? Oh, those are ugly thoughts, and they feel like nettle in his chest.]

I want you.

[That moment when you forget to use the words "to stay with" between "want" and "you" in your very pointed statement.]
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[He nearly registers the slip-up as the words are forming on his tongue (or certain words aren’t), but it’s already too late, and that’s probably, definitely too much at once — even if it's the pure truth with all of the pretenses filed off.

And normally, Henry is cognizant enough to reel that back in, diffuse the degree of intensity he privately harbors. But if Alec felt relief at his immediate reply, he did not vocalize it, and this compels him to clarify. To double down, in case this does somehow slip away from him. He can’t allow that.]


I said I want you. [Let him hear it again, then.] It isn’t about which world I end up in, or what opportunities or freedoms exist for me there. It’s about the person, and I've chosen you, Alec.

I don’t want to be where you’re not.
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[“Oh” is far too ambiguous to be very comforting, and the stretch of silence that follows—even if he knows that Alec is trying to parse what he’s just said—is like a knife slipping in centimeters at a time as the seconds tick, tick, tick onwards. And again, that ugly feeling writhes, and again, he thinks to himself, Maybe I should have said nothing at all. Even if it was the truth, and even if he knows that truth will never change.

Any response would be better than none at this point. He almost breaks the silence himself, but when Alec finally speaks—Me too—suddenly all of his words stumble over each other, and never leave his mouth. Save for one:]


—really?

[It's all he can manage right now. Henry would have been fine (no, he would have been happy) with remaining close, remaining connected with Alec even if he received nothing more than solidarity in return, with stints of sated lust in-between. Even if what he felt was utterly one-sided, it would have been better than anything he’s ever had before. (He would not have been alone.)

But to have this reciprocated, even half as much? It is nice to finally feel wanted. It’s deliriously the best-case scenario, but it stuns him all the same.]
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[The look on Alec’s face banishes the bulk of Henry’s disbelief, and the request eliminates whatever fragments might remain. What’s left is the sensation of all he’s kept neatly tucked away starting to unfurl, tendriling warmly in the pit of his chest, constricting in his throat. Let free, and it’s almost debilitating.

Almost.

For once, he does not perceive it as a command for his pride to balk at. His body practically moves on its own, and he manages to shift over to close the space between them, leans in with his forearm bracing himself against the back of the couch, and meets Alec’s lips with his own. He doesn’t care if it comes across as too eager. This encapsulates everything that he wants.]
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[A kiss is certainly nothing new between them, but this is different. Henry has spent so much of his life feeling as though he could never get what he wanted, even when he fought for it, that everything had been so unfair to him that it left room for nothing more than boiling anger. But this? This is finally, finally something different. This is being favored by fortune, represented so brilliantly by this man, and he presses in as Alec loops an arm around him, wanting to make it last as long as possible.

Eventually, Alec’s murmuring against his lips draws Henry back to reality, and he breathes out in amusement.]


What would she have to complain about? We’re not in anyone’s way this time.

[“Giddy” is not a word so readily applied to Henry, but when his own smile curves his mouth, it lacks all underpinnings of its usual performative, polite display. It is, for once, completely sincere — it even crinkles at the corners of his mismatched eyes.]
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[personal profile] vecna 2023-01-06 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[A blessedly empty common room. It’s unlikely that Henry would have had this conversation at all if it was occupied by anyone other than Alec; good thing it was vacant, then, because the end result is a moment that’ll remain burned into his memory. The good ones are so few and far between. If music were playing, he'd have his own anti-him song.

Though, a brow raises. What look?]


What do you mean?

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